Day 339

We are - apparently - going to the south coast this weekend, and it's a surprise. I don't know if I like surprises. - gulps - puts me out of my control..but it's a sweet thought of wanting to surprise me. On the other hand, ....I choose not to imagine the unforeseen events, YET one's subconscious cannot help it. "Stop it, think nothing, expect nothing, and you won't be disappointed". I rationalize: He's at work everyday, and when he's home, I know what he gets up to, there's NO way he's prepared anything. Undermine his multi-tasking abilities - yes - there's not going to be a surprise this weekend.

Day 343

What would you like for Christmas?

I honestly do not need anything, nor do I want anything. I told your mom I'd like some pot plants because that's probably the only thing you've prohibited me to buy due to them being costly.

Please sweetie, let's not spend too much on Christmas this year as we might have to start saving for next year - or you can buy me a ring.

I caved - again. The whole weekend, conversations of us seem to have molded into the understanding that we are already all family; me and them I mean. I suppose things were a little frisky between me and his dad when we got into a debate about an issue which we - once again - agree to disagree. Even our upcoming holiday to Tasmania is a family vacation, but not once did he mention to his parents that he is going to ask me properly.

Frustrating, yes. I don't want anything except a token of your commitment for Christmas, unless it's the $1190 Provence Antique Armchair


or a Kitchenaid Mixmaster,


or a mirror



OR a ring. I secretly do want a ring; To proclaim our commitment and love to each other. I am sounding desperate, but it's not that at all. It doesn't seem to matter to me because we are already loving and living the happy married life, but for my parents' sake. I am feeling a little clucky, and he knows it's got to be the way of tying the knot first, just so to keep my mum and dad off my back on this issue for eternity. It is worth it.

Day 349

How time flies. I completely forgot about you. On sunday, Day 351, we were out enjoying our day, and decided to walk in a few jewelers - Hardy brothers - The assistant Manager was really helpful and polite to us. the variety of the diferent types of rings I could potentially put on my finger. I tried on a few, and honestly, none really caught my eye. This included the hearts of fire sparkling one with the pink diamond in the middle. I had to politely declined and made some stupid excuse that we were looking around at other jewelers too, so it isn't really an excuse. It is the truth.

It is the effort and time he is putting in to finding the perfect ring for me which I am appreciating a lot. The sincere, time-taking, conscientious effort that this gorgeous person has makes me respect him more than the past 3 years we've been together. He listens to my justification of not wanting a huge ring but he thinks I should be treasured and valued with a beautiful ring.

I love him.